Daily rantings.

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2010-04-17T15:25:00.001+08:00

Hey. I miss you.

2010-03-22T20:52:00.001+08:00

NOT GONNA UPDATE HERE ANYMORE.
BYE-BYE.

Can't look back.

2010-03-20T14:29:00.002+08:00

To whoever made this: thankyou.

There's no doubt about it.

2010-03-20T13:11:00.004+08:00

I don't think i can finish all my homeworks by Monday ):

A.maths is seriously killing every brain cells i've got.

I haven't even completed my E.maths assignments.

There's still lotsa things i gotta do!
Teachers do not realize that they are actually killing students with all these piles of homeworks.
Fxck.

Mum and sis are away to JB.

I promised my mum i will finish every homework i've got and then use the lappy.

Now, i'm here, using the lappy, blogging when i have yet to complete all my assignments.

OMG.

HELP ):

Dad just gave me 50 bucks!

Kachingszxsxzs!

OohOoh.

Kay stop it.

Hmm, spent the day with cousins yesterday!

Had so much fun.

Rain, pictures, laughter, caucasians, indians, DENDENG-s, A.maths, youtube. (:

Hahaa.

Actually it was supposed to be a tuition day for me.

After tuition, eventho didnt get to complete all my amaths hw, hmm went Singapore Expo.

I was the only one who followed my makcik and cousins so i felt kinda extra there.

Pfft.

Whatever.

But overall, i enjoyed it (:

Hmm.

I thought that my heart would explode when you "Yeah", when i said if yr feelings faded away

Goshhhhh.

It was a serious joke.

Phewww.

Okay whateverrrr.

I know you love me (;

Hahaha.

I'm being lame.

I SERIOUSLY NEED SOME MOTIVATION FROM SOMEONE OR SOMETHING TO DO ALL MY HOMEWORK, PLEASE.

Uhh-oh, now my dad's going to work.

I'ma use the lappy all day long ):

Which is a good and a bad thing.

Ohgoshhy.

Kay uh byye.

iloveyouverymuch.

amaths.

2010-03-19T21:59:00.005+08:00

A.Maths is killing me.

Proper post tomorrow.
Or maybe the day after.
Gotta finish up every single homework i have :/
FXCK.

a promise is still a promise.
iloveyouverymuch,

Wonderful wednesday.

2010-03-18T13:16:00.010+08:00

Happy 45th Birthday To Abah!

Oh wait. You're 45 right.

I can' believe i just called ibu to ask her what's abah's age.

OMG.

Hahaha.

So yeah, happy birthday.

Thanks for eveything that you've done for me.

I appreciate it very much.

I love you so very much (':

Hmm, yesterday was a wonderful wednesday :D

Spent the day with R.

Slacked at Marine Parade library.

Seriously, We had nowhere to go.

So i ended up suggesting Marine Parade library.

Haha.

It wasn't that boring.

I did some maths, doodled here and there.

Texted Yasmin and Sufi for like, the whole time.

Thanks though, haha.

Read a book, which i don't understand a single bit.

That book can really put me to sleep.

There were some TKGS girls infront of us and they were very loud i can say :/

Noisy.

Tsktsktsk.

Parents fetched me after that.

Went City Square.

Kinda boring.

I mean, very boring.

Bought some stuffs.

Ooooh, and i ate beef steak! :DD

I've been craving for that since, forever.

I was like the first one to finish up the whole thing.

Well, pfft yeah.

My stomach was grumbling the whole time eversince i got outta my house.

It was VERY loud.

I think R could hear it when i was sitting beside him in the library.

Hahaha :D

Hmm, saw some nice clothes at Cotton On and i am so gonna buy em!

Ibu's gonna buy for me!

And i'm gonna get the shades too.

Pleasepleaseplease.

Hmm, i'm gonna get a new watch soooooon!

My current watch is so tak gune already.(but still can read the time)

The golden thing dropped off.

Sheeessh.

Hmmmm, i just so love yesterday!

Can't stop thinking about it.

I am gonna remember 1710310 forever in my heart.

Its raining now.

Sitting on my bed, with the lappy in front of me.

So warm and comfy.

But there's just something missing.

YOU.

I MISS YOU.

I'm still waiting for your text ):

Text me please.

)':

There's still loads of things that need to be completed by sunday.

Projects, homeworks, online assignments.

Goshhhh.

Its not even like a hoilday to me.

There's just too much of A.MATHS homework.

FXCK EM LA.

Internet is sucha distraction!

FXCK.

I miss you.

iloveyouverymuch.

live your live.

2010-03-16T19:22:00.001+08:00

walk on fire,

2010-03-14T23:13:00.006+08:00

Arguments mean nothing at all 'cos at the end of the day, i know that i still love you.

Heartbreaking facts.

2010-03-14T16:50:00.010+08:00

when everything that felt so right is wrong,

I heard something I didn't want to, and my heart sank like a sinking boat.

Camp was OK i guess.
Not that fun though but i love the Campfire v. much.
Not really "very much" actually.
Overall, campfire was the best.
Basically, for the first two days, it was fxcking tiring.
Yeah basically.
Obviously i ~~love~~, like the 3rd day.
Didn't do much. - Breakfast, Bunk cleaning, slack, slack, slack, Prize Presentation, and camp's over.
Waited for sis for like 3 fxcking hours and with nothing to do, i looked moronic.
No seriously, i look like a dumbass there.
Well, R was with me. (:
I was lethargic and sleepy to the core.
Zzzzzz.
Apparently i slept at 12 and woke up at 5 plus.
How can i not be tired?
For both 2 nights, i can't really sleep that well eventho i was sosososo tired.
Kept bugging Shafinaz that i miss him, i miss him, i miss him. (Hehe sorry shaf)
I did "stuffs" like praying to God that he won't ever leave me and whatever shitszx.
Seriously, i've gone bonkers.
Even Shafinaz said that i'm obsessed.
Ohmyyygodd.
People shouldnt be friends with me.
Heehe.

Hmm, first and second night, we watched 'Shutter' for our night movie.
First night, we watched until 12 midnight.
And i swear, it was horrifying.
Too bad i can't hug anything there.
Or even cover my eyes with anything.
I was empty-handed.
It wasn't that bad on the second night cos i had no mood for anything and so i didnt really concentrate on the movie.
Sorry Shafinaz cos i lost my mood all of a sudden because of B.

I thought that i would lose some weight after all the activity ive participated in the camp,
including all the trainings, and the PT.
But nope, maybe because i still consume lotsa food.
Sigh.

ZHAKIRAH.
YOU.
ARE.
SO.
FAT.
THAT.
YOU.
NEED.
TO.
LOSE.
SOME.
WEIGHT.

Fuck yeah i am.

Okay i'm done shitting with all the stuffs that happened during the camp.
Not really "ALL" laa.
Maybe it was just a summary of what had happened.
Lemme see.
I didnt talk about the Hike to ECP.(because there is just this person that i have an aversion to)
I didnt talk about what happened during first day of Field Cooking.(eeew its revolting)
I didnt talk about what happened after Prize Presentation.
Inter-UG Games.(very boring i can say)
Hmm, MORNING EXERCISE.
Well, i accidentally turned on waterworks during the punishment everyone(only SJAB people) had to do.
I tried to control myself from crying but i can't cos it was just so painful.
My legs hurt SODAMNMUCH from all the StarJumps and JumpingJacks we had to complete.
Fxck it very much.
I endured the pain at first but simply can't because it was getting worse.
I kept controlling myself and eventually i can't take it anymore and just broke down.
It was only in the morning and my face was all red and puffy.
Duh-uh big girls do cry okay.
Pfffft.

Campfire was awesome.
Screamed out loud like a crazy person.
Well, pfft, everyone was high that moment.
Shafinaz and i stood up on the bench and sang/danced with the music.
Wow, it was so much fun until all of a sudden my good mood just vanished.
I hate it when that happens.
I was all the way up and then suddenly i was all the way down.
I am so unpredictable.
Urgh.

Kaayy, stop talking about UG camp.
I'm home now, Safe and Soundly.
And right after i got into the cab just now, sis just got me bent outta shape.
I was all torn up.
Read real badly.
My heart sank after what she had told me.
Maybe what she told me was true, maybe not.
I call this Heartbreaking Facts.
It feels like i'm being double-crossed.
It feels like i'm being stabbed in the back.
Betrayed.
I thought i could trust you.
I mean, i trusted you.
I thought that i can count on you.
What happened now?
What sis told me just tore me apart.
I'm wrecked.
Now that i knew about it, i don't know how to trust you anymore.
I really need to talk to you asap.
I don't want this matter to be left unsolved.
I don't want to be hurt all the way.
I don't even want to leave you.
I want to gain all my trust i had for you back.
I just wish you were not like that.

"Don't trust him that much. Maybe he's the guy that is not faithful to his girl. Who knows." - Sister said this to me.

I don't even know what to do now but just wait for your text or call.
Oh God, please save me.

My trust is broken in two.

Slowly but surely i'm turning this around.
But there is something that i haven't found.
Sooner or later,
you will be finding out.
Sitting there waiting isn't so safe and sound.

iloveyouverymuch,

x3

2010-03-10T21:40:00.002+08:00

Late at night when the world is sleeping, i stay up and think of you, and i wish upon a star that somewhere you're thinking of me too.

promises.

2010-03-10T19:38:00.010+08:00

I love love love you.

say you'll never ever let me go-

get a life.

2010-03-09T18:11:00.011+08:00

I don't wanna care about other people.
I don't care what they wanna bitch.
I don't care what they think about me.
Seriously.
Stop bitchin'.
Stop gossiping.
Start minding your OWN business.
Start zipping your fuckin mouth.
Ass.

GET. A. LIFE.

Its in my soul. Its permanent. I can't take it out or I'll bleed.

Sunday.

2010-03-08T19:04:00.005+08:00

A bxtch like me.

normal.

2010-03-08T17:18:00.016+08:00

Practically, these are the things i did yesterday.

Miss him.
SMS-ed.
Cam-whored.
Telly.
And tuition.

And i spent most of my time thinking of him :/
Kay shh.

__________

Went JB after tahfiz on Saturday and it wasnt that boring.
Surprisingly.

Blaahblahblah.
Reached home like around 1 in the morning and had to wake up early the next morning!
Madrasah.
Tired.
Sleepy.

I am just lazy to interpret more.
These are the pictures for Saturday.
Sunday pictures, there's just too many of it.(CAM-WHORED)
Maybe i shouldn't upload ALL of it cos its just my face, my face, and my ugly face.

whats up?

2010-03-07T23:00:00.006+08:00

My eyes are very small today.
Tsktsk.
Ohmygod, why am i so excited about UG March Camp?
-.-

Okaay, i shall update a proper post tomorrow.

Okay goodnight lovers :)
I just realized that i like to say "okay".
Okay whatthehell zhakirah!
Okay.

Stop ittttt.
Kayy.

I WANNA SEE YOU TOMORROW! :D

Kaaaay bye.

I love youuuuuu very much <3

please?

2010-03-05T22:06:00.001+08:00

How can i ever let you undestand me?

2010-03-05T21:04:00.003+08:00

~

Just so you know, i think about you all the time.
If only you can read what's in my heart.
If only you could read my mind. (:

Masquerade

2010-03-03T17:44:00.008+08:00

These tears are falling,
This heart is breaking,
This love is fading,
Everything's changing.

I made it for fun.
So yeah.

creds to Yasmin too (:

_________

My feelings for you ain't gonna fade away.
Remember that.
Nothing's gonna change my feelings for you.

__________

i'm lazy to update my blog here.
im using tumblr more often now.
so do visit. (:

trust.

2010-03-01T16:24:00.002+08:00

that when all is said and done… what is meant to be, will be.

just breathe

2010-02-27T16:25:00.001+08:00

I SHOULD CHANGE SOMETHING.

never too late to start anew.

2010-02-26T19:09:00.001+08:00

yay,

2010-02-26T17:16:00.002+08:00

2010-02-26T17:10:00.000+08:00

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaheeeheehoooo! :D
I love youuuuuuuuuuuuu!

2010-02-26T16:23:00.002+08:00

Wooo.
Tall women.
Jealous.

follow yr heart.

2010-02-24T17:32:00.004+08:00

no words could describe how much you mean to me.

xoxo

iloveyou.

The day i went to Alexandra hospital.

2010-02-23T13:58:00.009+08:00

I just dont want to be forgotten.

2010-02-23T13:19:00.002+08:00

I made a poem again.

Trust my words.

Trust my heart.

Don't ever let go,

And we'll never be apart.

Seriously, its an original.

i love love.

2010-02-23T12:48:00.004+08:00

You know i love you.

xxxx

Damn i'm having diarrhea.
Food poisoning.
I'm still coming to school tomorrow though.

xxxx

2 more days to CT1.

xxxx

I LOVE YOU.

Facebook | Zhakirah M Nor Azman

2010-02-23T12:23:00.000+08:00

Facebook Zhakirah M Nor Azman

In my head.

2010-02-21T23:42:00.012+08:00

Goodnight.

i Love you till i die.

its beyond words.

2010-02-19T15:11:00.006+08:00

Zhakirah, stop uploading pictures.

Last post for today.

xxxx

I need you to trust me.
Ive realized that i love you so much now.
I'd cry if you leave me.
I still love you no matter what happens.
PLEASE trust me, love.

xxxx

I think about you everyday.
NON-STOP.

xxxx

I miss you.

I need you.

I love you.

zak-

2010-02-19T15:05:00.000+08:00

I mean everything i say.

2010-02-19T14:41:00.002+08:00

I still need you here.

Trust me.

2010-02-18T16:20:00.000+08:00

Is it worth it to cry now?

lost in memory.

2010-02-17T17:51:00.002+08:00

Things change.

2010-02-17T17:39:00.003+08:00

shakeshake.

2010-02-17T16:37:00.002+08:00

2010-02-17T16:33:00.001+08:00

Go away.

2010-02-17T16:00:00.002+08:00

I hate you.

I swear i wish i'd never met you.

Shoooo~

God loves you.

2010-02-16T15:20:00.009+08:00

Still sick.
There's school tomorrow.

I wanna see you.

I miss you.

I miss my friends.

I hate my voice.

I hate having blocked nose.

I hate being sick.

I hate it when i can't text.

I hate studying.

I hate it when i procrastinate.

Damn it.

xxxx

I love it when you call (:
My heart beats faster when i hear your voice (:

xxxx

i love you.

zak-

LOL.

2010-02-15T13:36:00.003+08:00

I miss youuuuuuuu!

2010-02-15T12:23:00.014+08:00

Went Kenduri at auntie's house yesterday.
I WAS SICK!
Lazy to elaborate what happened :/
I hate being sickkk.
Oh the last picture, i almost throw up cos the kueh tasted like DURIAN ):
So yeah.
Didn't attend tuition yesterday.
Slept like a pig all the way.

xxxx

Why is it that everytime you can't text, while i can, and then you can text, while i can't?
Its irritating ):
And sad too coz i miss you.

xxxx

I made a poem by myself.
Well, its just a short one.
Not really a poet.
Okay it goes on like this. -

A day to remember,
A promise to keep
You'll forever be in my heart,
Even if it ever bleeds.

Haha.
Its not really a good one though.

xxxx

Ohmygee, i miss youuuuu very very very muchh.
I hope i can still go to school on Wed ):
I wanna talk to you.
Sorry i left you about 5 missed calls yesterday.
I'm so sorry.

xxxx

I feel so crappy.
My nose hurts.
My head hurts.
I hate having flu.
Oh, i can feel the air i breathe out is warm ):
Am i having fever?
Nooooooo.
Just normal flu.
My body is aching.
Gawd, i hate being sick now. -.-
I hate it when i'm sick and i'm missing you badly.
I miss you just like a kid missing his mummy.
Darn it.

xxxx

I still have incomplete homeworks.
Argh, can i not do homeworks? ):
I hate social studies.
Dammmmnnnnnxzsx.

xxxx

i love you.

zak-

Thanks, but no thanks.

2010-02-11T20:55:00.012+08:00

Stupid parade -.-

I hate it.
I hate it.
I hate it.

Damn embarrasing.
Why must be at the parade square?!
>:(
But, well, look on the bright side.
At least i've got a rank noww.
Actually its reallllyyy no big deal at all :/

Okay, training was not tiring just now.
Rehearsals.
No PT, no footdrills.
Just rehearsal and parade.
Oh and presentation in hall.
Good right!
K, whatever.
Shafinazzzzzzz, i miss you sia jut now.

Why am i talking about CCA and stuffs? -.-

xxxx

Soooooooo..
Moving onnnn..
I've finished reading Its Not You, Its Me book.
Happy ending.
Well, kinda.
I love the book so much (Y)

xxxx

I MISS TEXTING MY PEEPS SO SO MUCH!
I MISS TWEETING USING MY PHONE 24/7.
GAHHHHHH!
Dad, would you please kindly pay up the bills!?!

I've gotta say this- thanks for everything.
You're just so sweet :)
Like sweet to the maaaxx!
Love you loads.

-
Cause the love just grow and grow and grow.
Feeling like it was just yesterday.
That the love affair happened.

zak-

Anonymous lover.

2010-02-10T15:26:00.010+08:00

When I 'm feeling dark, you're always be the light of my life.

Gosh, i love reading the book - It's Not You, It's Me by Kerry Cohen Hoffmann.

For the sake of the book, i sacrificed my sleeping time, and so i slept late for the past 2 days, and i can't really concentrate in class.

My eyes just couldn't take it.

It felt so heavy i can't open it.

So so sleepy!

Thanks a lot, book.

xxxx

Y'know what?

Somehow, i just feel that i'm attached, but i'm not.

Well, truthfully, i belong to someone but i'm not DATING him.

Honest.

I feel secure.

Oh, is that the correct word to describe my feeling?

Pffffftt.

Okaay whatever zhak.

xxxx

I love you.

xxxx

You don't die from a broken heart. You only wish you had.

zak-

2010-02-08T18:20:00.006+08:00

SORRY IF I'VE NOT BEEN REPLYING YR TEXTS.

BILL PROBLEMS -.-

SO DON'T BOTHER TEXTING ME AGAIN AND AGAIN (AND AGAIN) AFTER READING THIS.

REAL SORRY.

ILY.

I'd swore to you my love would remain, and i swear it all over again.

2010-02-08T17:27:00.006+08:00

A simple phone call is not enough.

#nowplaying Stuck With Each Other - Shontelle ft. Akon.

Okaaayy i'm updating since SOMEONE asked me to :)

Basically nothing interesting happened today.
But my mood swings are starting to annoy me pretty lately.
There's times i'm really in a bad mood, and suddenly i go all hyped up. :D
I know you know why.(to some people)
*winks
Heheee.

I'm always happy when there is YOU in my life.
Everytime i talk about you, i feel so elated.
LOL.

*thanks for making my day.
thanks for being there.
thanks for EXISTING in my life.
i love youuu la.
♥

Kay shit, this is crapxszx.

xxxx

Hmm, currently i'm OTP with someone.
He/she makes me smileeeeeeeee.
Haha.
I'm randomm.
There's nothing to talk about now.
I just love him/her!

xxxx

Suddenly i feel like i'm gonna ignite.
Explode into tiny million pieces.
Pfft. I'm crapping.
Hmmmmmm..
You know what?
I've been spending all my time reading books day and night.
I'm kinda neglecting my studies.
Ohhhh this is horrible shit.
But i can't put the book away!
I can't say goodbye to it.
I wanna let my imaginations run wild.
Studies are sucha bore.
Heeeeho.
Apparently now, i'm loving A.maths!
E.maths, i hate you.
Go and dieeee and don't ever come back and haunt me!
I hate e.maths but i love a.maths :D
Okay this is weird.

Oh well, i gotta go.
Homeworks are waiting for me.
SOBSOB.
E.MATHS! I HATE YOU TO THE CORE!
Get out of my life.
IF ONLY I COULD KILL YOU.

xxxx

I love you to the max!

zak-

Kids in love,

2010-02-03T17:41:00.004+08:00

'We're just kids in love'

zak-

I'm missing you every moment the time flies by.

2010-02-01T18:46:00.003+08:00

Hi.
I miss.. ):
Wow, its february already.
See how faaaast the time flies.
2 more weeks, or maybe 3 until CT1.
I'm dead.
K.
Won't be posting much now.
Gotta focus.
Kay, bye.

I love you v. much )':

Everything comes naturally.

2010-01-29T21:49:00.005+08:00

Can i count on you if i fall apart?

Disheartened.

It was you who let everything into my heart, and it was you who once again awoke my spirit.

Stop breaking my heart.

Its not gonna end no matter what.
I'm still holding onto my promise.
Trust me for once.

I know you, and i don't care of what others think of you.
You're still you.
And i love that YOU.

zak-

I'm losing hope and fading dreams.

2010-01-28T18:31:00.007+08:00

Will not be replying yr text messages.
SORRY.
MY PHONE IS SCREWED.
I shall reply whenever i feel like replying.
No important stuffs, sorry for not replying yo.

Okay, i've been updating my blog now, wow.
I should stop this.
I can't be online everyday.
I gotta study man.
Zzzzz.
Facebook, blog, MSN.
DISTRACTIONS!!!!!!!!!

"Life could be so predictable."

What is going on?
WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME?
I cry everyday, i feel moody, i don't have mood for anything.
Maybe you're the cause of it.
Damnzsxc.
I wanna see youu tomorrow and talk things out with you.
There's just some things i gotta tell you.
I'm sorry.

zak-

dadeedoo.

2010-01-27T16:23:00.010+08:00

oh i laughed my ass off yesterday night watching this video, my sis showed me.
can't really sleep yesterday night. i laughed and fell down from my bed -.-

lovelovelove it.

OH MY GODDD.
I'M STILL ONLINE FROM JUST NOW, AND HAVEN'T EVEN TOUCH ON MY HWS.
I'M GONNA BE DEAD.
Kay zhakirah.
Wtv.

BYE AGAIN.

You just need more time for it.

2010-01-27T15:46:00.007+08:00

What a daaayy.
What happened to me just now?
Whole class knew about it.
Oh my.
Sudden break downn, and I can't help it.
It was unexpected.
I hate it when i cry.
It was, baddd.
Thanks Fhateen and Ashada for making me laugh just now.
And Miss Tan* was, erhhhhh =.=

I don't like it.
D:
Hmm, i'm okaayy noww!
School was normal.
Free period during physics :D

Kay skip skip skip to after sch.
It was, OMG.
I wanna elaborate but i don't think i should.
Siggggggggggggghhhhhhh.
What happened!
Hmm, i'm giving you more time cos i know you need em.
I understand you :)

Ah, my eyes hurt.
I gotta wear specs 24/7 now.
WTF.
I'm going to be blind.
Well, i'm tired now.
SHORT POST AH.
Gotta bathe and do homework noww!
Tuition later :/

~
I'm still holding on.

I'm sorryyyyyyyyyyy ):

Kay bye.

Should i put my blog on private?

XOXO;

loveeeeloveeee.

2010-01-24T16:34:00.003+08:00

hello!
i'm in love.
not yr business.
right?
k.

6 upcoming tests next week!
this is stressful.
and, ohh, i'm still online and can blog about this.
pfffffft.
i needa studyy!
oh, new specs nowww!
luminous bluee laa.
wow.

goshhh!
tuition later!
gonna reach home late again.
okaaay.
bye.

i love youu all!

Unbeautiful.

2010-01-19T21:12:00.007+08:00

I've been told, whats done is done.
To let it go, and carry on.

F'd up.

I'm sitting with tht 'person' now.
Everyday.
Every lesson.
We made a deal.
OMG.
Helppp meee ):

There's 2 projects that i have to complete!
Geography and P.E.
Can't this be any worse!?

Okay basically i had fun in school just now.
P.E was the most awesome-est moment.
Fhateen, Yasmin and me had bad luckkkk.
I really think it was because of Tian Mu, who passed th bad luck to Yasmin.
HAHAHAHAHAHHA.
F, Y and me were laughing all the way.
Even when Mr Ho was talking, F, Y and me were laughing our ass off.
Seriously.
A lot of things happened.
Can't help it when we were supposed to do star jumps.
OMG.
HAHAHA. :D
Yeah, seriously, there were LOADS of things that happened todayy.(interesting things)
Funnnn la!
I'm starting to love my class~
Woooooooo!

Omg, i hate having periods! ):
Fxck it.

I'm having heartaches.
Zzzzz.

Oh, you're just too shy to start talking to me.
Come on!

18/01/2010 ; 9.27 PM

Much misses.

2010-01-14T20:44:00.002+08:00

This will be a short post.
I'm kinda busy lately.
Also, lazy to update though i'm always online :/
A.Maths is killing me ):
I am soooooooooooooooooo stressed out.

Being too self-conscious now.

2010-01-08T20:56:00.003+08:00

I'M POSTING!

Okay life's a bxtch.

Yeah.

School was a bore.

CCA was fun. SOMEHOW!

I love asking th sec ones to join our CCA.

They're so, innocent, so cute.

Just some of em.

There were like a few minahs.

Come on, sec ones, minahs? eew.

Followed Amalina to her house before CCA.

We were rushing, and when we got down the bus, we raaaannn and dashed to school.

Late for CCA!

Haha it was fun though.

Talked about our times in 2009 and laughed so loudly in the bus.

Hahahaheeheehoho.

Sooo much to elaborate but i'm not really in th good mood now.

Oh somehow, somewhat, i love my class.

My classmates, they're so kind.

Its so much different than last year.

Thanks Harry for what you've said to me.

It means so much to me.

I know, i have to make friends and i can't simply let my mouth shut all the time.

Note to self: SPEAK UP MORE OFTEN!

Oh i know, my hair is ugly.

I just feel insulted.

Whatever.

Flag day tomorrow.

Gotta wake up earlyyyy.

Gonna meet Yasmin and Fatheen first.

Oh, i really am rebonding my hair this time.

No doubt about it.

You'll see.

I just hate being insulted.

Thanks to some of you, who have always been there for me when i need a shoulder to cry on.

Nazeha, i love you so much.

Best Cousin For Life <3

And to some of the rest, thank you.

I love you guys so much.

the feelings never gonna fade.

2010-01-06T15:19:00.012+08:00

HELLO!

well, i'm trying hard to not use lappy again cos i wanna concentrate on studies!

maybe i won't be updating for a while.

oh, i should concentrate on studies now, and i find all th subjects i'm taking now are kinda tough so i really really gotta work hard.

no more blogging, no more chatting no more updating facebook for the time being.

so yeah, BYE-BYE!

ON HIATUS!

Loads or things to think about, plus you.

2010-01-05T15:25:00.007+08:00

I feel nerdy today.

Oh maybe because i am nerdy.

Okay so yeah, school was okay, wayyy better than yesterday.

Except that i still hate my hair.

It gives me this feeling.. that i can't explain.

Maybe.. i just have low self-esteem.

No not maybe.

I have low self-esteem.

I'm self-conscious, and thats for sure.

Actually i got lotsa things to say here but i my mind just went blank everytime i begin my post.

Sooo, no lessons in school just now, but yet, i'm friggin tired.

I had cramps all over my body yesterday eventho i did nthg in sch.

Oh, Mr Lim chose our Chairperson and V.Chairperson just now.

Chairperson: Benji.

V.Chairperson: Kietthipong!

Thanks to me, Yasmin, Alena and other someone who voted for Kietthi :P

Well, vice-chair, GOOD LUCK.

I am sooo talking shit right now.

Oh and anyways, maybe changing CCA is not a good idea for me.

I've made up mind, and i am not gonna transfer CCA.

Yay?

Or Booohoo?

Maybe i shouldn't care of what others would say or think about SJAB.

People think its lame.

Well yeah, that CCA sucks, to be honest.

I'm sorry but i just have zero interest in that CCA.

Pffffffft.

Like what i've promised in the 'Letter to myself", i shall not quit that CCA, and will slowly have passion for it.

Maybe one day i would realize that that CCA is fun?

Oh who cares?

Wait, stop being egoistic. - NOTE TO SELF.

I am talking nothing but craps about schooool!

Bahh, i am tired ):

And y'know what?

My mum set parental controls on this laptop.

How greaaaat is that huh?!

Stupid.

Idiot!

Each thought of you drives me wild.

Oh, I'm losing my mind.

How can i ever stop this?

I'm SO not being myself these past few days.

Sometimes, i would suddenly break down, and cry.

I'm miserable.

School's bothering me kinda lately.

Eventhough its just the second day of school, i got lotsa things to think about.

I'm so stressed up.

Friends. Family. Studies. Life. The world.

Its all revolving around me!

OMG. Its more than i could ever imagine.

There's more to think of.

what is actually going on??

i just hope you're fine.

ohhh, maybe someday..

I hate school for life.

2010-01-04T14:54:00.004+08:00

Zzzzzzz!

Well hello.

School was.. discouraging.

I barely talked to anyone in school today.

Fxck my hair.

Fxck my class.

Fxck the school.

Urgh, i hate school!

Hate it hate it hate it.

Form teacher was.. okay though.

Mdm Safia and a new teacher, Mr Lim.

He loooooooves to talk.

And lemme exaggerate on th LOOOOOOOVE.

I swear he can never stop talking, even for once.

After 1 min of break, he continued talking.

Some of his stories were okay yet bbbbboring.

It was a good thing that i had to change place at first..

Some people know whyy.

I mean, THANK GOD i didnt get to sit with him.

Actually it was not that bad, err i mean it was okay sitting with him.

But too bad huh.

So currently, my partner is Xi Wen.

Okay whatever.

Ohh yes, good thing Yasmin sat near me. (:

Basically, there were nothing interesting that happened just now.

Lessons would start as per normal on wednesday! :D

So i guess there would be no studying in school tmr.

Teachers are gonna choose the committee members and all those stuffs.

Yeah, whatever crap.

I'm starvingggg now.

Oh yeahh i'm fasting.

Okayy, i still miss Amalina nw ):

ARGH I HATE MY CLASS!

lazy bum.

2010-01-03T18:37:00.003+08:00

hello.

i've been so so so lazy to upadte nowadays.

webcammed with amalina ytd and it was soooo fun :D

i swear that i'm so not ready for sch tmr.

urgh.

well, its a good thing didnt have homeworks for the holiday!

yeah, crappp.

currently webcamming with amalina again :D

i love her new specs!!!!!

wooo.

i am bored.

gotta off soon.

habbo is getting lamer and lamer -.-

okay people!

are you ready for schoooool?

hahah, k random.

bye uh!

back back back!

2010-01-01T11:15:00.004+08:00

Hiya!
My internet is baaaack, and i can blog now for sure.

But i'm still temporarily using the lappy now.

Maybe i should update later if i have a chance to.

There's someone in my house :o

The computer maannnnn!

Okay wtv.

My life's been so dull these past few days.

I kept rotting at home and i think i'm already decomposing.

Boooo~

Oh yeah, HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Seriously, i amm sooooo not ready for a new year and school, omg.

Not even a single bit of excitement for school.

Pfftt, i'm outta words.

Peace out homedawgz! ;}

When there's nothing left to hold onto..

2009-12-25T17:28:00.003+08:00

SENTOSA WAS SUPER DUPER AWESOME.

Day out.

2009-12-22T20:13:00.013+08:00

Superb ,
Fantastic ,
Tiring day with Amalina.

Orchard > Ion > Wisma Atria > Taka > Paragon > Plaza Singapura > Tampines Mall.
Got scolded by some bxtch.

Followed mum and sis to somewhere then.

Super tiring day ):

23 December 2009 @ 8:20

I'm just gonna sit here, shake legs and wait until something blooms out.

Just stay true to yourself.

;Who are my real, true friends?

~~~~~~

I hate my hair.
I hate my hair.
I hate my hair.
I hate my hair.
I hate my hair.
I hate my hair.

What does it feel like to have lots and lots of freedom?

Inside i feel like screaming.

2009-12-22T19:45:00.004+08:00

It all goes back to the first kiss

It was the one I thought I'd never miss

Maybe we were one of the lucky ones

Maybe I'm just not quite string enough.

This was supposed to be the easy part

But breaking down is what I found hard

Now i'm wearing this smile that I don't believe in

Inside i feel like screaming

She gave me every reason to believe, I'd found the one

But my doubts somehow they sold me out.

I'm bruised and scarred

Save me from this broken heart

All my love will slowly fade and fall apart

Someone please sing this lovesick melody

Call my name If you're afraid

I'm just a kiss away

I'm finding out the hardest way

The consequence of every mistake I've ever make

Baby what's it like to be alone?

I don't wanna know, i don't wanna know.

So baby be honest

Is this what you wanted?

We lost what we started

And found out much more than we wanna know

About how we're letting go.

There were times i still think about you.

There were times i think about our memories.

There were times flashbacks haunt me.

There were times i cried thinking about them.

There were times i think how did we fall apart.

There were times i think of us being together.

Why did we fall apart?

Don't get me wrong, i've gotten over everything.

BFFL.

2009-12-20T21:16:00.003+08:00

Hai ! Guess who's here ? HOHOHO. Amalina's here ! :) And just nice 101 posts fr zhakirah . 100 is the mostttt accurate , i know . Okay im here to post something funny,happy & sad ): 2010 is going to start soon . Bye Bye 2009 . I wont be as happy as i am during 2009 . Time passed really fast . .. ):

We're going to be seperated next year , but hey we promised something right ? That's between u n

me . I wont break the promise & i hope that u wont break it too . I had fun with you this year ! :)))

Okay i still remember between the 1st week of school , u sat beside me during assembly & u asked

for my phone number & u asked me some questions . I also did ask you qns . We started sharing...

secrets middle of the year , whn you and me became very close . I am so thankful to have a friend like you . Okay we always laughed during art lesson , rmbr ? Almost every lesson we'll laugh. I still

remember during recess , we're in the classroom talking bout some show & suddenly u said e word

obek , and i fell down from the chair b'coz its funny & we cant stop laughing . And frm that time , we

started laughing during art lesson thinking about the word obek . And we sang the replay song &&&

chnged the lyrics . We even sang in front of ms farinna . hahahaha ! Whee , rmbr that time when we laughed

so hard till i swallowed the chewing gum . i was laughing plus tears came out .You panicked & asked me to

drink lotsa water . And we started to think negative things . HAHA. Ok there's one time whn ure really sad

about something. Its mid august if im nt wrong . I hope u dont think about it anymore okay :) I want you to

be happy . HEYYY remember the trip to the museum , we found out one funny word. Poleng . :D We burst

off laughing like mad women . Thn we nearly naek the wrng bus after that ;) Hmm ... Okay laast day of school.

ive no mood , im so sorry ): And i cried a million times just becoz of sth . Im sorry ): I kept thinking negatively...

and one more thing ..we're going to be seperated soon . Recess time , u didnt eat coz u see me crying in the clsrm

. Im sorry ): Whn the bell rang, we were'nt happy . We cried ): Ahhhh . im really sorry , i just cant take it anymr.

We msged about stuffs . And lotssa things happened abviously . I dont evn feel like going home that time . Hmm.

Zhakirah didnt went to Obs ): Awwh its okay . I missed her like hell whn i was in camp . Hate camp :X Okay we met up at the chalet & i was happy to see you :) Took lotsa pictures , our hobby ! blablabla .We didnt met a few fays after that . Thn few weeks aftr that we went somewhere ? Bugis ! :DD I had fun with u that time ! We wntd

to buy those dresses right ? :D OoKay Done . End of story . Zhakirah , im sorry if ive hurt ur feelings before . Forgive all my wrongdoings . Sorry coz im irritating at times . And i had fun with u the whole year . Im sorry if i didnt talk to u in school whn i haf no mood to do so . Im really really sorry . & smile always :D I love you very very very much . Please keep the promised we made . I hope you do okay :) And i miss you so much ! I miss those laughters ! I MISS YOU ! We're meeting on Tuesday , yay ! I love you honey . i know 2010 wont be the

same as 2009 , but stay happy always :D I PROMISE I WILL KEEP IN TOUCH WITH YOU FOREVER.

takecare Zhakirah my BFF :D

With love,

Amalina

Happiness vs Sadness.

2009-12-20T19:38:00.007+08:00

Eveytime i think about 2010, my heart beats faster than ever :l

Why?

I'm not so sure.

It just freaks me out.

And now, i've cut my hair like an ugly mop on my head.

I swear its ugly on me.

Short, curly, what else?

Urghhh.

I want my normal hair backkk.

Pleeeaseee.

Okaaay i'm using lappy now!

I know, i'm not over-reacting or what but its the first time.

Not the first time using lappy lah but first time having a lappy in my family.

Pffffffft.

But still this is not my lappy.

Booooohoooos.

My sister got an iPod touch which is soo unfair.

Nvm, i'll get it next time.

And i saved the day yesterday.

I figured out everything about that iTunes thingy.

Wooo, zhakirah rocks.

Muahaha.

Joking!

Wow, using lappy is so cool. :P

Hahaha i'm so lame.

I'm chatting with Amalina now.

Talking about our memories during 2009.

The REPLAY song.

Hahaha.

During art class.

EVERYTHING.

I miss themmmm.

I miss everything.

2010 WONT be like 2009.

OMG.

2009-12-19T18:03:00.001+08:00

Someone is pissing me off.
It irates me.
FXCK.

Boring friday.

2009-12-18T16:40:00.005+08:00

Feelings are much like wave, we can't stop them from coming but we can choose which one to surf.

Jonatan Martensson.

Oh heyy, its friday!

Should i be happy or sad its friday?
2 more weeks until school re-opens.
OH MY GOSHHH.
I AM SOOO NOT LOOKING FORWARD FOR 2010.
I will miss 2009 ):
It seems that time flies so fast.
2009 wasn't what i expected it to be.
I didn't really had the moments the way i want it to be.
But, a lot of things were not planned, and it happened.
I didn't really expect it.
Oh well, things happened.

Currently chatting with AMALINA and habbs-ing.
Bored.
I've created MySpace.
Haha, yeahs.
Forr funn :D
I'm getting really annoyed cos people playing habbo are mostly Malaysians! -.-
Wtf.
Nak conquer kerrr.
But i must admit, habbs is getting more boring each dayy though there's so many friends playing.

Hey the new Pepsi logo is nice.
The style.
I prefer this than the old one ^^
Its just sooo cool.
Bahhh, i'm crapping nowww.

1,750 songs
10 hours of video
10,000 photos
Up to 30 hours of music playback
Up to 6 hours of video playback
iPod touch 3.1 software
Wi-Fi
Bluetooth
Nike + iPod support built in
Built-in speaker
Earphones

NEEEEEED IT A.S.A.P please.
Or should i get iPod nano?

Hey, omg!
Habbo on FB?
Coooool or whuaaatt!
I can play both at the same timeee.
This is awesome.
Oooo, seriously cool.

Art Of Love.

2009-12-15T15:49:00.010+08:00

I'm still learning the art of love;
I'm still trying to not mess up.

So, hello there.
I've been kinda lazy to update blog.
No life, seriously.
Ahhh, should i go Malaysia with cousins?
Should i or should i not?
I don't wanna feel so extra there.
Parents are not going, so it would be just me and sis.
I wanna goooooo, buuuuuut....
Naz wants me to go soooooo soooo badly ):
Its so complicating!
A lot of things i needa think.
Hotel room, the car, a lot moreee.
Fxckkk.
I need options.
Okay forget it.

Hey, is twitter okayy already?
Its so screwed.
-.-

Sooo, lately, my life have been soooo dull.
I need a cure for it.
Mmmm, school's gonna re-open soooon.
Omigodd.
*shriekkks*
I don't wanna go schoool please!
But at the same time, i feel i wanna go sch.
Ahh, fickle-minded.
Haha.

Ohh yeyyy, i'm getting a lappy ;D
Eventho its for me and sis, i'm still happy :D
Its okaay, mum's gonna buy for me next time when she got enough money for it.
Yeaaa, bersyukur lah!
Haha.
Woooooooooo :P

Kay bye!

XOXO.

Those times.

2009-12-11T23:59:00.001+08:00

~
HABBOHABBOHABBO :D

I am bored.

I miss people.
I miss merayap-ing with Amalina everytime after school.
I miss her.
I miss laughing with her.
I miss those times.
I miss everything.

Forget me not. ~

HOLIDAYS SUCK WHEN YOU GOT NOTHING TO DO AT HOME.

Rot at home all day long.
But sometimes i think, its better than being at school :P
RIGHT?

Hm, planning to go Funan Digital Mall tmr morning.
And then going cousin's house in the evening.
MAYBE.
HOPEFULLY.
I wanna meet Nazeha :D

What's in yr mind right now?
Nothing.

Who are you?
A human.

What are you doing?
Typing. IN THE DARK!
HABBO.

Who are you thinking of right now?
Someone who broke my heart.

What are you craving for right now?
SNICKERS.

Who was the last person you laughed with?
Sister.

Whyyyyyy are youu upset right now?
-.-

Who do you wanna meet so badly?
Amalina, Nazeha, some other peeps.

What song that is currently stucked in yr head?
We'll Be A Dream.

Are there anyone you're jealous of?
YESSSS. ALOT.
Heeh.

Are you having a crush on someone now?
Yeah.

What do you think of him?
Nice. Fun to be with. Kind. Not irritating.

Since when you had a crush on him?
Err, beginning of the year i guess.

Do you think he likes you?
Maybe not. IDK.

Who do you share secrets with?
Nazeha. And another someone.

Okaaaayy, forget it.
Outta questions =.=

I'm done here.

XOXO.

We'll Be A Dream.

2009-12-11T01:20:00.000+08:00

Do you remember the nights we
Stayed up just laughing.
Smiling for hours at anything
Remember the nights we
Drove around crazy in love

When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Likes it’s all we have
To hold onto and we'll be a dream

Do you remember the nights we
Made our way dreaming
Hoping of being someone big,
We were so young then,
We were to crazy in love

When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Likes it’s all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream.

XOXO.

Mistakes.

2009-12-11T00:41:00.008+08:00

Cos things ain't right.

You're no longer the person i've known all these while, that's why you should just go.
Go forever in my life.
Leave everything behind.
Leave me alone.

You don't really have to say anything.
Don't make is as if its a big deal, cos i ain't talking to you anymore.
I just don't know who you are.

Someone, please make me feel better. Cheer me up. Everyone's leaving me.
Why?

And, thanks for that someone who has always been there for me all the time and supporting me.
I'm just sorry i couldn't repay everything back.
I'm sorry too because i couldn't..
Just sorry for everything.

Just sit back
And tell me
I'm a liar for this
Don't roll your eyes
Rewind
This happens
Way too many times

So sit back
And tell me that your
Tired of this
I know
I'll grow up someday
But it's 2am
And I'm too high and dry
And I won't come down to

So when I come back
I won't say a word
I know
I've said this before
Don't speak, liar

No we won't talk
We won't say a word
I know
You've heard this before
Don't speak, liar

Sit back
And tell me why
I'm so prone to this
Do you think I'm fond of
Getting you and letting you down
And I'll get mine soon

So when I come back
I won't say a word
I know
I've said this before
Don't speak, liar

No we won't talk
We won't say a word
I know
You've heard this before
Don't speak, liar

And if the story ends here
I can't be surprised to find
Your eyes are open wide
And that I have inspired you

And when you come back
Don't say a word
I know
You've said this before
Don't speak, liar

No we won't talk
We won't say a word
I know
We've heard this before

Happy fool.

2009-12-09T21:40:00.005+08:00

I don't wanna call you a jerk. I don't wanna hate you. Yes, i don't hate you for all i know. But please, you're attitude disgusts me. Please change? Well, i know, you're yourself. You can't just change yrself because of me. I understand that but you really have to change for yr own good. For yourself.

Ohmygodd.

Yre just not the one i've known all these while. Godddd! Who are you? And where'd you go? I want the old you.
But now, you've left. And there's no turning back for us. I'm gone, and you are too. Forget me, and i'll forget you too. Oh no no no. I am not forgetting you. People keep saying to me, i've gotta move on. Yes, i'm running away from you, and i'm moving on too but my heart can't find the peace, if i still keep thinking about you. My friend. I keep thinking that you're still here with me, and that you're still my friend. But that's just my imagination. My fucking thoughts. I need to go through all these with you, like we used to. I don't want you to go. I don't want all these shit. I'm not strong enough to bear this alone. I need that someone to talk to, to share things, to do what best friends always do together. But.. ohhhh god. Our journey just ends here.

So close yet so far.

2009-12-09T00:54:00.008+08:00

Sup!

Been busy past few days.
Went JB/Malacca on MONDAY.
It was okay.
Tried Fish Spa.
OMG.
Can't stop laughing!
FISH NIBBLES!
So ticklishhhhh.
BUT FUN :D
Got home at 12.
Tiredddd.
And obviously, i bought my bubble gummies!
Its a must! :D

TUESDAY;

Met Afiqah, Ashada, Bazli and Bazil.
Watched New Moon.
It was okaaaayy.
Afiqah and me waited for them cos they're late -.-
Hmmm, actually, i thought it was kinda awkward meeting Afiqah for the first time.
Cos we mostly talked to each other by MSN.
But things got better naturally.
Talked to her normally :D
Hahaha.
Kaaay WEIRD.
Actually it was fun spending time with Afiqah :D
Hmm, i didn't get to buy things cos parents fetched me straight away.
Sadddd, i still wanted to window shop with her D:
Hmm, then went somewhere with family.
Somewhere farrrr..
IDK where.
Bukit Timah?
Not sure.
Baaaahs.
Went to see some fishes/sea creatures -.-
Yea.
Nothing much.
And thenn, went around singapore to find places for eating.
All carparks were full!
And at last, Bedok Corner to mamam.
Saw SLEEQ.
Argh, they smoke -.-
K whateverrr uhh ey.
Hm, got home arouund 10 i think.
Slept at 2 in the morning.
Yesssss.
Sooo late.
I slept late these few days.
Actually, only during holidays.
Yeah, who doesnt sleep late during holidays?
Tell me who.
LOL.

Gaaaaahh, i'm feeling tired these few days.
I got like, 10 or more hours of sleep per day.
GREAT :D
But still tired.
-.-
Okaaay i'm rotting at home now cos i didnt go out today.
Tmr there would be tahfiz, and i can't skip anymore.
Didnt attend last tuesday's -.-
Maybe i'm going somewhere after that.
But i told Amalina, i'll see how things go first.
Cos mum wanna go out.
She asked about my iPod Nano.
GRINS!*
I wanna buy that iPod!
I think its $228.
Hmm yeah.
I'll just wait patiently for it :D

I wanna go out with AMALINA again!
Please please please!
URGENT!
Heeh!
I hope there would be another chance for it.
She's kinda busyyyy.
I wanna spend time and enjoy with these peeeps before school re-opens.
Arggggggggggghhh.

Current mood: RESTLESS.
Currently eating chewing gum.
Currenly uploading pics in FB but its sooooo irritating cos loading slow ah!
LAG!
Oh no.
I needa "work out".
I'm getting _ _ _ !
fat at fat.
GRRRRR.

K bye.

You're not YOU anymore. You're just another stranger. A complete total stranger to me. I don't know you, and you don't know me. That's what you want, so be it! I don't wanna hear a single thing from you again. Just don't bother to text or call me, cos you're just wasting yr time. I don't want this to happen but you make it happen.
You're self-centered. Selfish. Egoistic.
Don't be sorry to me cos no one's at fault. TO HELL WITH YOU.

Life.

2009-12-06T22:04:00.003+08:00

Its like we're each locked in our own separate wolds, like each of us is trapped inside one of those colourful, shimmery small bubbles, able to see each other but not really hear each other.

Direct my steps for good in this world, all the days of my life.

OXOX

All again for you.

2009-12-06T14:39:00.007+08:00

I'm not alone.

Remember that zhak.

I dont wanna care anymore.

That's it?
Okayy, be it then.

Be strong zhak.
Its the end.
No more you.
No more everything.

And yes, this is good for you.
For everyone.
For me.
Right?
Okay.
GOOD.

Whatever.

But this isn't goodbye.

OXOX

Butterflies that flew away.

2009-12-05T01:00:00.010+08:00

Things are just so complicated now.
I wish you could just understand me.
I want things like how they used to be.
So perfect.
I want all those times back when we were so close.
We shared almost everything together.
I understand you best, you understand me best.
But now, what happened?
Everything's shattered like an old broken glass.
Everything that we have build together, is falling apart now.
We went through lotsa rollercoaster rides together, even the most toughest one, and we ended up happily ever after.
But that was the past.
Gone.
Why can't we just become like in the past?
You should and must understand me, cos you always understand me best.
You once said that you are not letting us fall no matter what.
And we promised not to.
Hold onto your words please.
And now you said that you wanna leave everything behind, including me.
What's this?
You said we're just like the two butterflies in one flower.
But now, we're just like fireflies.
No more butterflies.
I'm sorry i said all those words to you.
Hope you understand.
We gotta fight this together, hand in hand.
Dreams are just dreams.
You gotta fight for it to achieve it.
I just want the old us back.

Don't say you're gonna wait for me.
Don't say you're not gonna give up on me.
I know, one day you will stop all these, and move on.
And i know, i'm sure that my feelings had fade away completely.
Its for sure.

I'M SORRY.
FOR EVERYTHING.

And i will forget all the bitter/bad memories of us and keep the beautiful ones in my heart and mind.

Xoxo,

Love me, leave me.

Say hello to goodbye.

2009-12-05T00:21:00.005+08:00

Yoooo.

My com is back to normal!
Yippppeeee!
Well, past few days, had awesome moments with cousins!
Okay here it goes.

-1 December-

Tahfiz.
EARLY IN THE MORNING.
Well, i was late.
Hehh.
Sis and i decided to waste time, purposely go around Marine Parade.
Reached MKS at 11 plus.
But tahfiz was supposed to start at 9.
So yeah.
LATE.
Then bla bla bla.
Parkway Parade.
Banquet.
Shared 2 food with 4 people -.-
LOL.
Went Airport afterwards.
Slacked there.
It was great.
Went Airport just because of their Strawberry Yogurt Freeze!
I want more of that, man!
Arghhh.
Sooo effing nice.
Talked, talked, talked.
I cried.
I was down.
Cos my cousins, sis and i were sharing everything together.
And suddenly i let out some tears.
Okaaay im crazy they say.
Got home at 7.

-2 December-

BUGIISSSSSS !
With Amalina baby.
Tried lotsa dresses.
Gorgeous!
Then went home at 3 plus.
Went off to library alone then.
AND I SAW JJ!
HIM!
Like, imisshimsomuch.
As a friend.
Haha, we didnt talk, just said hi.
Cos he gtg.
And then we texted.
Seriously, the last time i saw him was last 2 years.
OMG.
Haha.
K, then went pasar malam with mum.
Then home.

-3 December-

Tahfiz > Esplanade > Airport(again)
Nothing much happened but it was the most incredible moments i had with my cousins.
Slacked somewhere at T3.
Took lotsa pics.
Videos.
I wasssss soooo over the moon bcoz of sth :D
Teehees.
And seriously, me and cousins were like psychos.
Laughed too much till my stomach hurts.

ARGHH,
LAZY TO UPLOAD MORE PICS.
EVERYTHING'S IN FB :D

I thought Amirahh would be coming to my house.
She said she's selling ice creams.
But she said nevermind.
Hahaa.
I miss this computer!
I wanna buy my own lappy.
I'll save my own money from now!
YESSSSS!
:D

Ahhh, i don't want 2010 to happen.
I don't wanna grow up.
I don't wanna become sec 3 next year.
)':

Ting ting ting ting ting ting.

2009-11-30T18:13:00.002+08:00

SAW VI WAS AWEXOME!

Short post fer today :D
K, bye!

Easy come, easy go.

2009-11-29T15:42:00.006+08:00

HELLO.
Had an awesome day yesterday.
I don't know why am i feeling so happy yesterday :l
Basically, went out with cousins.
The usual girls.
Decided to go Masjid Sultan at first, but then i woke up late, so went Bugis.
SHOP SHOP SHOP :D
Bought a mood ring at Diva. Heh.
I've been wanting that for a looooong time alr -.-
Hm, saw some awesome stuffs there, but just didnt have enough money for it.
And and, something 'interesting' happened yesterday.
I was in a shop, buying some stuffs, and cousins were out, idk where they went.
So i walked out of the shop to find them.
Saw them, being 'interrogated' by some orange people :/
HAHAHA.
They want us to say some words for Team Singapore.
Sorta like wishes for them.
I didnt know what was going on at first, so i just nodded.
Like wtv lah.
So, they were like so happy about it, then they asked for the cameraman.
OHMYGODDDDD!
I was like, HUUHHHH? APER NIEEEE????
My cousins were freaking out. Plus me.
We were supposed to say, "ALL THE BEST, TEAM SINGAPORE!" at first.
And everyone was like looking!
In public laaahh hello?
Ah, then second time, we were supposed to say, "TEAM SINGAPORE, YOU ARE NO.1".
It was funny actually.
I was the one who stood right infront of the camera!
I knew what i had to say, but it came out all wrong.
I was shaking.
Yeah, first time in public.
What do you expect?!
I can't stop freaking out.
Baaaaah! :/
They said that it would not be shown on tv, so i thought it was okay!
It was one of the most embarrassing yet amazing moments of my life.
Haha.
Can't believe we just did that.
And then at last we got a $5 Fairprice voucher from them.
-.-
Yeah wow.
So moving on, after Bugis, went Iluma.
First time there.
It was.... empty.
Kinda boring there.
I kinda like the graphics, at "Everybody's Blond" shop.
Cooooool.
But it was still renovating.
Not open yet.
So walk walk walk.
A lot things happened but just couldnt remember :p
Hm, went library, and then Masjid.
I thought we were lost, but we ended up at Tiong Baru at last.
Greeeeaaat.
The mosque was sooo eerie ;l
I waited outside all alone while the rest performed their prayers.
I was sooo silent, so i listened to some music to break the silence.
Yeah, music. In the mosque.
I can't go in actually.
So waited outside.
Then went Tiong Baru Plaza.
Bought some stuffs there.
Nazeha bought a shoe.
Her shoe was seriously terrible.
Heeeh.
The salesperson seriously takleh harap lah.
He was sorta like "mat".
He seems to be shy i think cause we were all girls, and he was the only boy there.
Zzzzz.
Can complain yknow.
When Nazeha wanted to ask for her shoe size, he walked away.
Pretended by not knowing we were there.
So we became our salesperson by ourselves.
Looked for the shoe size, paid up, then ciaozxs.

Reached home around 10 at night.
Tired.
Used com for a while, and then slept at 2am.
So basically that was what happened yesterday.

The orang kahwin downstairs so noisy laah!
But the smell of food is sooooo nice!
I wanna go down and ask for some.
Haha, as if huh.
I'm not that kind of people. ;/
Oh, im sooo addicted to Halls sweets.
The new one!
Sooo nice.
Sedapppp lerrs :D

Hey,
I can't help it when boys break girls heart.
It hurts to see someone i love crying.
Whatthefuck.
He thinks we're like somekind of a doll?
Toys?
Well hello, we got a heart.
And it's not meant to be shattered.
Or broken. I'm maddddddd.
Ohhhh yes i am.

Stop this love.

2009-11-27T12:14:00.000+08:00

I think i'm falling for you.

I'm not in love.

Stupid.

Shucks!

Stop it.

I hate it.

I HATE LOVE.

(Seriously.)

Falling in love?
FUCK.
I don't want this.
I gotta fight this feeling.
I wanna get rid of it.

I don't even you.
Maybe you're just some kind of a jerk.
Yes you are.
I got that feeling and i know it, and i'm sure of it.
Stupid.
Seriously.

Omg.
I hate you.
Wait, i don't.
Oh wait, yes, i hate you.
I'm lost.

Anyway, i kept crying while watching "I'm Not Single".
Argh.
Over and over again.
Pffft, wtv.

Maybe you're right.
We gotta move on.
And, I'm not coming back.
I wanna stop this pretence and get straight ahead.

I'm not gonna fall in love again.
EVER.

xoxo.

Lost in human nature.

2009-11-26T12:01:00.007+08:00

Here i am, missing you now and forever.

Come back.

World behind my wall.

2009-11-25T20:30:00.002+08:00

Pffft!
HELLOHELLOHELLO.
Currently i am doing nothing, at all.
HABBO.HABBO.HABBO :D

-21 November-
Went tahfiz.
It was so tiring, cos i had to go up and down to take wuduk.
Well, yeah i understand that they're renovating the place(MasjidKampungSiglap)
But the female musollah was so small, and at last i had to pray in class :/
LONG STORYYYY.
Okay blablabla.
Met Nazeha at Bedok Inter.
Saw Hock Chye and Vivienne wearing St John's uniform.
Wow, my sis and Nadiah covered/blocked me.
LOL, went library.
SOLAT THERE. (WOWWWW)
Then was being shoo out.
Kene halau.
-.-
Slacked at mac.
Like 1 hour plus? I think.
Uhm, i love the chocolate cake! :D
Kay nvm.
Erh, went home at 9 plus.
HAHA, i love the part where we stood in the middle of Bedok Inter,
and deciding where to go.
TALK TALK.
Tskkk.

Oh yes, WHY DO PEOPLE HAVE TO TEASE GIRLS WHO WEAR TUDUNG?
Like, they said, assalamualaikum, or whatever. =.=

-22 November-
Madrasah.
Hmm, went Airport.
Slack.
Eat.
Okay done.

-23 November-
NOTHING MUCH.
ROT ROT ROT AT HOME.

-24 November-
Can't remember what happened ytd.
HAHA.

ZOMG. I JUST CUT HAIR.
AND SURPRISINGLY, I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT.

Common Denominator.

2009-11-21T00:37:00.004+08:00

Umm hello.
I am not feeling well now ):
Ate a lot just now.
Cousins came over to my place.
Then we went straight to TM.
Watched 2012 with cousins and ate macs.
Omg, for the first time i ate mcSpicy and now, i'm sick because of it.
After movies, went out with family to chinatown, and then newton.
I ATE TOM YAM AND ANOTHER SPICY FOOD.
How can i not be sick.
Kept going to the toilet!
Stuuuuuupidd.
Diarrhea now.
Argggggh.
FCUK. =.=
Stupid spicy food!
I cannot eat too much spicy food. D:

Okaaayy, 2012 was great.
I love th show.
I cried at some parts.
Wow.
Haha, Razeef and Farhan were at TM too.
But didnt meet them.
I dont know what to post now.

BYE-BYE.

It takes time to love.

2009-11-18T17:22:00.009+08:00

THE 80th POST!
Hello humans on earth.
Today is a boring day.
Like always :/
Spent the whole day uploading pics on FB.

Oh yea, i've relinked.
PLEASE RELINK ME.
SORRY FOR THE TROUBLE AND THANKS.

I didn't know it would turn into a massive disaster. I didn't expect the worse from coming. I really didn't know you would turn up to me and say all those things. I didn't expect the unexpected. It turned out to be so wrong!

How i wish ..

2009-11-17T16:29:00.014+08:00

Salamz.
Yesterday's chalet/BBQ was great, but boring, but fun but okay.
Soooo, overall yesterday was okayokay :p
I had fun taking pics with Amalina.
I luv her cam. Boooohoos.
I really need one, but sadly no one's gonna buy for me.
So i shall save money and buy it on my own!
I went home around 8 plus.
Amalina and i really really thought that Ms Farinna and Mrs Lua would come
but in the end Amirahh told us it was fake.
I felt like a loser for trusting Adrian.
I really thought the teachers are really coming.
Pffft~
I slept in the bus. -.-
Was really tired, duhh.
Eventho i didnt really do anything at the chalet. Heee(:
Oh yes.

HAPPY 14 BIRTHDAY SRI HERLINA!
MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS.
BE HAPPY!

I am borrrrrrrrreddd~
I just feel like shit now.
Hmmm, i had fun talking to Ashada yesterday. HAHA.
I can't forget what you said.
Seriously.
One day, im gonna find out what you really wanted to say to me.
SOONER OR LATER!
Or i will bug you like hell. Muahaha.
Ohmygeeee, results are on Thurs and i totally forgot about it.
I had confirm my outing with Faisal on that day but at last i told him i can't.
Sorrrrrrry.
I seriously forgot all about it. Sorry huh.
Sigggggh.

I really feel like changing URL now.
But i can't think of anything right now.
SUGGESTIONS AGAIN PLEASE. :l

I'm signing off now.

You know what, i really don't wanna care anymore.
You can gettha hell outta my life cos' i swear, i hate you.
You are nothing but just a piece of shit to me.

Enough is enough.

2009-11-16T22:49:00.010+08:00

I AM TIRED.
Chalet was okay. To most of the people, it's fun for them. Had fun taking pics with Amalina, Marissa and Adawiah.
OKAAY , I WILL CONTINUE TMR.

And to Afiqah and Ashada, i really hope your own problems will be resolved sooon. Dont be sad.
I'll always be there for you guys (:

You can't go just yet.

2009-11-15T20:28:00.000+08:00

Di malam ini, Di Waktu ini
Ku masih terkenang dirimu
Biarpun tiada kau disisi, diriku.
Senyumanmu, raut wajah mu
Membuatku terus merindumu
Biarpun kau meninggalkan aku, cintaku.

Ku cuba tanpamu disisi
Ku cuba tanpa hidup denganmu
Meskipun ku tak mampu lupakan mu, kasihku.
Ku cuba tanpamu dihati
Ku cuba berhenti merindukan mu
Ternyata tiada pengganti dirimu, selamanya.

Sedetik ini, ketika ini
Ku masih memikirkan mu
Dimanakah dirimu kini, gadisku.
Andai aku, ulangi lagi
Cerita aku dengan kamu
Takkan ku menyakiti hatimu, bintangku.

Ku cuba tanpamu disisi
Ku cuba tanpa hidup denganmu
Meskipun ku tak mampu lupakan mu, kasihku.
Ku cuba tanpamu dihati
Ku cuba berhenti merindukan mu
Ternyata tiada pengganti dirimu, selamanya.
Kini...

IF ONLY YOU KNEW.

Awexome moments

2009-11-15T16:16:00.007+08:00

HELLO.
I AM SICK!
Good right?
HOW? Tmr chalet! ):
I need to recover soooooooon! -.-
Okay imma talk about yesterday night.
IT WAS FRIGGIN' AWEXOME!

Okay, straight after tahfiz, my cousins and i went to my house, to solat first.
And then around 7, my uncle fetched us, and went Changi Beach! :D
It was drizzling when we got there. HAHA.
Then BBQ, celebrate uncle's birthday, eat eat.
I SERIOUSLY CAN'T STOP EATING YESTERDAY!
The chicken wing, the ikan pari with sambal(OMGOSH! :D), the kuih kaswi(MY FAV).
The chocolate cake was, okay. I didnt like it that much. HAHA.
The satay! YESSSS. I want more and more.
Hmm, i love the weather yersterday!
It was super cooling, especially at the beach.
WAS SHIVERING LIKE HELL. But i like. Wooooo~
Then i started to feel bored, since i got no one to text to, i decided to wander around with cuzzies.
I love the night walk. HAHA. Seriously.
Nadiah, Nazeha, me and sis just walk around, and then sis saw some kittens.

Farzanah: OMG OMG OMG! Kittennnnnnn! :D
Nadiah: OMG, ah2! Jommm!
Zhakirah: =.="
Nazeha: =.="
Nadiah: EHH I NAK ANGKAT!
Farzanah: Eh, nak amek makanan? Kasi kucing.
Nadiah: Jom ah.
Zhakirah and Nazeha: Kite tunggu sini lah. Malas!

Me and Nazeha started to walk back and forth, waiting for them.
And then, tired, i started to squat down in the middle of the pathway. HAHA :D
It was in front of the public toilet. HAHAHA!
Then talk talk, suddenly Harith appeared outta nowhere..
He was like sweating and panting.
Blahblahblah, talk talk talk...
Nadiah and sis came back with fooood. HAHA.
Shall not elaborate more.
Then Nadiah asked Harith to stand in front of me while i was squatting.
She asked Harith to do some acting. LOL. WTH.
Then took some pics.
PEOPLE KEEP LOOKING AT US. =.=
Then everyone played bunga api.
IT WAS , OMG , SOOOO FUN !
We burnt things .. HAHA ..
Kaay i know , childish laaah kan , but it was seriously fun.

Okay next part, night walk with Farah, Hazim, Hafiz, and us, (NNFZ.)
We walked from our pit , all the way to Changi Airport.
FAR/TIRING but FUN !
With the cold wind, strolling around 1 plus in the morning at Changi Beach was soooo great.
And then the 'SIMPUL BIAWAK' attacked my toe. HAHA.
2 times sia.
Sis started to step on my foot, several times.
And i accidentally screamed. Hehh.
Yeah very loudd.
Kayyyy, then keep on walking and walking.. And then we patah balik.
Played the swing along the way. Hoho.
Kay then skip, skip.
Ending part, everyone wanted to take a group photo.
IT WAS SO FUNNY!
We smiled for like about 5 mins but the camera still didnt work.
Uncle, uncle, nak buat kelakar pagy2 bute.
Then they were like a lot of mat-s, passed by.
Then my mak cik said, "Ahh tu mat mat, surolah amek kan gmbr."
"Ish ish, mat nie sumer, tak tawu nak balek!"
HAHAHAHA! I was like grinning away.
At last everyone tried to deal with the camera but still cannooottt.
Then one of my mak cik used her own camera.
YESSS ATLASTTT! LOL!
Heh, i love playing with the sand.
Even though throughout the whole BBQ im not really in the mood, it was enjoyable.
Went home around 2 plus, and then i slept at 2.45
TIREDDDDDDDDDD!

Woke up at 9, cos i gotta go madrasah.
EXAM EXAM EXAM!
Can't concentrate cos i got flu, and was damn sleepy.
Sighhh.
I screwed up both paper, Arab and Akhlak.
WHO CARES LAAAHH.

Okaaay, whatever, bye.

PICTURES UPLOADED IN FB. TQ

Suffer in silence.

2009-11-12T22:00:00.009+08:00

i tried to be perfect but it just wasn't worth it.

So.. hello. I know, lotsa pics up there. HAHA.
Yesterday was uber fun talking to Amalina till late night. I mean till morning.
Laughing withh her feels soooo great. It really reminded me of the moments we had in school. Awww. I miss her. I miss her laughter. HAHAHA!! Okaaay, weird.
We laughed because of some photos in FB. Gonna shusssshh now. Haha :DD *winks.
I decided to teman her until she gotta go, and then i log off. Hahaa!
I miss that cute girl so muchzxs! ARRRGH.
But hey, i'm meeting her on MONDAY! YAY! :D
I can't wait till MONDAY!

Speaking of class BBQ, i'm going picnic on SATURDAY with cousins, and family.
But mum's not coming D: Hahaa. At least sister is following!
ZOMG. I really can't wait! AHHHHH. *exaggerate
I'm so gonna have fun! 2 more days!
And then Monday class BBQ! How greaaaat! ;D
Wootzxsx!
Okaay i am bored .
Let's talk. Okay i forgot what to say. :/

Just now at home was great.
I had the computer all by myself! HAHA.
I was alone at home, and i cried.
I was watching Front Of The Class, and then suddenly i broke down.
I love the show. It's about a guy who suffered from Tourette Syndrome.
OMG, so sadd D:
Especially when everyone in his class laughed at him because of his ticks.
Brad Cohen was ridiculed, beaten, mocked, and shunned.
Children, teachers, and even family members found it difficult to be around him.
It was so sad! Sigh. OK, i should stop it.
I watched Joshua too.
Can't really understand the story that much.
I dont know why it was rated 16 for horror.
Maybe the story wasnt scary for me.
It really wasnt scary actually!
Its about a kid who was jealous because his parents gave more attention to her newborn little sister than him.
And then he started to terrorize his family.
Found out that actually he was abused. By someone or something, idk.
I dont really understand the story. Heh.

Hmmm, currently texting Razeef and my cousin :D
WOW. I miss them badly. Sighhh.
I'm currently addicted to Pieces by Sum 41.
I just love the song. Sighhhh. Meaningful lah.
I feel like hugging someone now. You know who. (;
Sadddd uh. I miss you ):
And i was sure about my words okaay. Believe me. :D

I MISS A LOT OF PEOPLE.
Hope i can meet you guys some day ):
Oh yes, PENYAPU SUCK.
Amalina, and some other people, you know who!
He's pissing me off. I HATE HIM!

Haha, my sis cut her hair SHORT just now.
It looks okay to me, but she keeps complaining and its really pissing me off. Real badly.
I told her she looks like a minah when she ties it. And then she keeps exaggerating. HAHA.
I'm a meannnnnnnnn sister! Actually she doesn't look like minah at all. I was just scaring her. >:)
HAHA. GOODLUCK WITH YR HAIR SIS! MUAHAHA!
Camwhore at home just nw. Heeeh. Soo fun :DD
Pictures are above.

WOW! LONG POST!
K ah, byeeee!

If you only knew i'm hanging by a thread
The web i spin for you
If you only knew I'd sacrifice my beating heart
Before i lose you.
I still hold onto the letters you returned
I swear i've lived and learned.

Memories will last till the end.

2009-11-12T01:40:00.005+08:00

Hey, its 1.40 am in th morning and i'm still chatting with Amalina.

We laughed , hell yeah alot just now . Hahaha . Funnn ! Th pichas !

HAHAH ! Imma off com and go to sleep at 2 am :D
I'll continue tomorrow / later . Sweet dreams !

Take care yo . LOL .

GOOD MORNING ! / GOOD NIGHT <3

I LOVE AMALINA SO DAMN MUCH (L)

XOXO ;

Feelings are forever.

2009-11-10T23:50:00.003+08:00

No matter how much I need you, want you or miss you, I know that I can't be with you and that we don't belong together...

I'm sorry ~

In the pain, there is healing.

2009-11-09T16:06:00.000+08:00

Broken by Lifehouse <3
I love the song ! SO SO SO MUCH .

Hmm , holidays are boring when you just sit at home , stare at the computer for a long time , and then just watch teevee . AND ROT TO DEATH . It sucks ! Hey , i miss school ! Eh wait , i don't!

I need to go to the hospital again . But i need a letter from the polyclinic first . Sigh . Troublesome . I'm just being random here -.-

Oh yes , Masyitah ! The cute cute girl :D She was my friend during primary one ! We've lost contact for like 7 years and now we've started talking :D Greaaat ! Haha ! I miss my primary school moments . I miss my friends from Madrasah Al-Maarif , Madrsah Wak Tanjong and East Coast Pri ! D:

Okay nevermind . Masyitah told me , i like to bully people when i was primary one . WOW . Shocking much ! I was apalled . HAHA ! I can't remember i like to bully people ? Amazing . Hahaha ! Sorryyyyy . Yeah i know , i was in primary one . I was just a little kid then . I can still remember , primary one - i love to cryyy so muchhh ! Haha . And once , during recess , there's a bird shit on my tudung . And the bell had rung , and i didnt know what to do . So i broke down , then a girl helped me . WTH ! So gembeng ahh me ? Hahah ! I WAS PRIMARY ONE FOR GOODNESS SAKE ! Haha ! Miss those times . And primary two and three i changed school for some reasons . HMMMM .. Primary four changed school AGAIN . To East Coast Pri :D I love that schooool ! :DD

I'm going out tomorrow to meet Nadiah ! YAY :D Haha i'm gonna lend her a book . She said she wanna read it . DUH . Where Raninbow Ends - its a great book ;D I think i'm gonna end the post now by saying , I MISS AMALINA SO MUCH . Hahhaha ! ;D Don't forget the promise aye ! HAHAH ! K , lame!

BYE !

You can spend your whole life holding on.

2009-11-08T20:03:00.005+08:00

Problems come and go.

"We just had another tough roller-coaster ride. It was a tough one but we made it.
Your hand still holding strong in mine .''

I wish, i wish i wish.

I think you should stop lying for now and just tell the truth.. Stop pretending.

It ends tonight.

2009-11-07T22:14:00.005+08:00

Heyy. Well, i've been busy these few days. (: AT LASSSSTTT HUH!
Went out with sis to Plaza Singapura yesterday night. Waited for mum to finish the seminar thingyy, idk- At Concorde Hotel. So me and sis decided to shop at Plaza Singapura.
It was plain boring. Seriously. We were like 2 perempuan sesat there. Walk around, go up, go down. WTH. Bought a bracelet and sis bought a ring. AHEM AHEM* :P Okay, at around 9 plus, we decided to go for one last round. And then went off. While walking to Concorde Hotel, around The Istana there, me and my sis were like laughing away because of something funny. Yeah funny. duhhhh. And then... okay whoops. Shall not elaborate. RACISM.
Hmm, was not in the mood to shop actually. Something bad happened. Well yeah, until now. FCUK.

-7th November (just now)-

GEYLANG(to eat) > CENTRAL > SGH .

Went Singapore General Hospital. WOW. The place has changed! Well yeah, i think it has been 5 or 6 years since i went there. Hahaa. The letter box that moves thingy was still there! :D I'm amazed. Hmm, shall not say the reason why i went there. :/ Shhhh. Uh, met my mum's friend. Salam, and then my talk2. She was my aunty's friend. Okay nevermind. She brought her son. OMG, HER SON IS DAMN FREAKING HOT.
Haha, i can't help it. Hmm, and then my sis and I laughed about something dumb. Laughed till i drop. I mean, I rolled on the floor laughing. WTH. :DD It was funnn. Hahaha!
Ate chicken wing. HAHA. And the tea was super hot! Ate the sugarrrr and i got high! :D
Woooooooo! OMG, I CAN'T FORGET ABOUT THAT THING. Okaaay nevermind. HAHAHAH!

OMG, I saw a cicakkkk. BIG BIG ONE!
There's like damn alot of cicak in my house! And they're freaking noisyy! Haha. My sis banged the cupboard. The cicak-cicaks live up on the cupboard. Yeah, ew. Alot of shit too. Obviously.
-.- SOMEONE LIKES MY LAUGH! YAY. HAHA. ITS CONTAGIOUS! :l

The song Go - Boys Like Girls is stuck in my headdd ! HAHA. ZOMG, I miss Amalina! ):

Over-reacting

2009-11-06T16:09:00.004+08:00

You guys really don't know anything about it. I'm so sick and tired hearing this stuffs. I just don't wanna be involved anymore. PLEASE. It's killing me. How am i supposed to remain calm, when everytime this bullshits keep happening?

FUCK EVERYTHING. Thank you.

Ijustwannabealonefornow'

I wish i could;

Its fun for you guys but its hurting me so badly. Stupid! You just can't see people being happy can you? FUCK YOU!

And how could you? All these while, i trusted you so much. I never knew this would happen. I was dumbfounded, when suddenly.. Ugh! This is really bullshit. I hate you now. And i realised, i was dumb, SO DUMB to forgive you after all the wrong things you've done to me. I was stupid. And you are too. Just soooo stupid! Get it. So much for your, ohhhh, i trust you, dont worry, nothing's gonna happen, i'm not gonna let us fall apart after everything we've been through. OMG! And now, you're just accusing me. You're talking shit. I swear that i never like him at all. Not even once i liked him. WTF is wrong with you? He was the one who texted me, and told me some bullshit about you, and you're blaming me. OMG! Okay you know what, you're right. I should just go. Away forever in yr life.

Happy now?

What the hell is wrong with people nowadays ?!

Bad things happens, and it would just keep happening. But hey, we''re not gonna fall apart. You know that. You promised. And i did too. But what now? You're just giving me a piece of shit! Where' d you put all your words? You threw it all away? WOW. Great. Sooo great. Oh yeaaa i'm mad. SOOO MAD, that im not gonna talk to you.

BIG DEAL HUH ?

SORRY IS JUST A WORD! APOLOGIES WILL NOT BE ACCEPTED.

And oh, i'm not the LIAR. You are!

EDITTED.

2009-11-03T19:43:00.007+08:00

CAFE WORLD! \m/

HELLO! :D

MTV's From G's to Gents are aweeeeesome. Riff Raff is kinda hawt. xP Haha, i like the name too. RIFF RAFF C: Coooool. Okay forget about that. GUESS WHAAATT? I... I......... am bored. (: So mundane. Please, i needa do something besides using the com every single minute. I was thinking of going cycling or roller-blading tomorrow with sis! :D How's that? Waaait, i neeeed money money money. Awww, i don't have enough ):

I want my friends to come back! OBS OBS OBS. I hate you OBS. I miss my friends! I wanna go out! ): Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh COME BACK SOOON! I miss texting you people. I miss texting you-know-who. D: I need you-know-who so badly. Zzzz. Camps suck! Grrr. I hate camps. But but, i got a reason why i didn't attend OBS. (: Personal reason. NO ONE KNOWS except family.
Hais. Amalina, Yasmin, i misssssss youuuuuu! so so so much. Haha.

Moving on.. i can't believe i'm going 15 next year! WOW. It's like a blink of an eye. Time flies so fast. Sometimes i feel that i'm scared, sometimes i feel that, WOW, sec 3 seems so fun! But hey, its a tough year. I really gotta study hard and no more slackingg, spending hours on the computer anymore. I wanna get good grades. I regretted my sec 2 life so much. I just wished that "THAT" didnt happen, and i would concentrate on my EOY. Sigh. I GOTTA WORK EXTRA HARDER NEXT YEAR, STARTING FROM NOW ONWARDS. :D

I wanna learn how to create my own poems :D It's fun and interesting i suppose. Right? TEACH ME! BUT! i gotta improve my English first. My vocab especially.

   Dreams are today's answers to tomorrow's questions.   

- Edgar Cayce

ITS SO TRUE!

DAFFODILS.

I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.

Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the milky way,
They stretched in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay:
Ten thousand saw I at a glance,
Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.

The waves beside them danced; but they
Out-did the sparkling waves in glee:
A poet could not but be gay,
In such a jocund company:
I gazed---and gazed---but little thought
What wealth the show to me had brought:

For oft, when on my couch I lie

In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils.

No real love in you.

2009-11-03T11:06:00.009+08:00

(Swensens Airport)

WOW, LONG TIME NEVER UPDATE!!! Sorryyyy. I'm kinda lazy to blog. Okay now, I'm bored. I think im gonna be sick D: Everyone's in camp! I'm super duperrr bored!
Okay, my life.. i can't find the perfect adjective to describe it but my life's been okaay but boring.
I got my phone back ! That's one thing to be happy about :D The other is .. oh wait . I don't have another thing to be happy about. Okay nvm. I'm just hoping OBS camp would end now, this moment, but that's just a wishful thinking part of me. I really wanna go out. ):
Anyway, let's talk about 2010. My results were like shit this year. I regretted slacking, playing around, and not studying. I really regretted. I wanna take A maths next year, but i got 67% . I think that's okay , but hopefully i would get it. The criteria for taking A maths is 65%. Yeah, just 2%. I SOOOOO HOPE THAT I WOULD GET A MATHS! D: D: Overall, my results are sucky. The remarks Ms Farinna gave was mean. :/ Nvm, lets not talk about it. My mum was pissed -.-

Anyways, anyone wanna catch a movie? I wanna watch 2012! :DD ANYONE ANYONE? Haha. Tell me if you wanna come along. :D I'll be waiting! HAHA. Talking about movies, I've watched Jennifer's Body; AND ITS FREAKING AWESOME YO! Eventho its goryyy, its really great!
Megan Foxx was amazing! :DD I've watched The Final Destination too. (Thanks Amalina fo the website! :DD) I think i could understand why it was rated M18. Its super gory! I wanted to puke when i was eating and watching the movie. I know, i'm pathetic. HAHAHA! There was lotsa bloooddd, and fleshhh, and blooodd again. Ewww. You can see that its really fake actually :/ Haha! But, overall, Jennifer's Body and The Final Destination were REEAAALLYYY GREAAAATT . AWESOME .. FANTASTIC .. INCREDIBLE .. :DD

Soo, now currently i'm chatting with Faisal. Hmmmph. I AM BORED ! Cafe World is getting lamer and lamer :/ Hais . Nothing to do ! WOW . Holiday sucks . Well well well .. you know what . i hate someone ^^ URGHHHHH . WTF LAH :L Okay its okaaay . Patience is a Virtue.
Yeahh never mind. I'll f0rget about it . I'm not talking to him/her !

I'm addicted to BIG BANG songs . Hahaha . My Heaven is really nice and i love it so much ! <3

It means everything .

AUTOMATIC

2009-10-29T18:25:00.007+08:00

HELLO. WOW. That pic is soooo last yearrr -.- Haha. MESSYYY HAIRR :D

Okaaayy, imma post about just now in school. TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL! Well, i'm not so happy about it. I cried, and i was like "i don't want to separate with you!" and then sobsobsob. D': Amalina! I LOVE YOU! D: Haiiiissss..
Okay , Ms Farinna talked to each student just now, and when she talked to me, she said my maths is 67! So... i can take Additional maths :DDDDDD But can't be too sure of it. (:

I'm so addicted to AUTOMATIC by Tokio Hotel. WOOOOTT :D Nyahaha. Okaaay bye :D

ENJOY YOUR HOLIDAYS PEEEEPOS!

SHINGZ :D

Don't give it away.

2009-10-27T17:59:00.011+08:00

So, HELLO peepos. Didn't go to school today. :D *GRINS* Woke up, i searched for my phone, and searched for my charger. Damn it i lose the charger. Good thing it's not MY changer. It was the temporary phone charger. Hais, till now my phone can't be used :/ Siggggggggggggghhh. BATTERY FLAT! =.=
So, currently, im chatting with Diyana, my pretty lil sis. WAKAKAKA (jgn kembang eh)

NANA says:
KAKAK (:

says:
YO !

NANA says:
hehheh.

says:
hahaha /

NANA says:
giler

says:
mmg ..
ehh laparr .
boringg ..

NANA says:
laparr ?
jom gy kfc.
kat bedok/
serious.

says:
TANAKKK !
smlm baru mkn !

NANA says:
HAHAHAHHA.

says:
then saket perot .
berak2 !
hahahaha !

NANA says:
ish ish, food poisoning .
haha.
eh, tady ader org tak dtg skulah taw.
in my class.
eu guess who.

says:
who ? sean ?
saper ?
hahahaha .
danial ?

NANA says:
nope.
sean is one of them
lagy satu aderhh.

says:
saper ?
idk .

NANA says:
ME .

says:
ohhhhhhh .

NANA says:
haha, coz i go dating with sean lorrh.

says:
i didnt come toooooooooooooooo !
hahahaha !

NANA says:
you also ?!
omg.

says:
yessssssssssssssss !
pawto .
hahahhahaha !
malas sia .

NANA says:
eh, but my fren say she saw you.

says:
huhhh ?
salah org !
HAHA !

NANA says:
but she say its you.
takkan salah org seh.
natasha taw yg saw you.

says:
huhh ?
NOOOOOOOO .
tuu smlm .
is it?

NANA says:
NO.

says:
:/
kk mepek !
i didnt comeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !

NANA says:
HAHAHAHHHAAHHAHAHAA

says:
maybe my sis ?

NANA says:
ABEH PERCAYER

says:
MAKKKK , LAME LAME . K TKPER !
Hahahhhhhhh

NANA says:
hahahaha.
MARAH SEH ORG TUUUU !
you rmb the first time when you talked to me ? in the toilet ?

says:
yuuupp yy?

NANA says:
you asked me about faisal, didnt you ?

says:
oh yea why ?

NANA says:
i suddenly hold ur hand sia.
i didn't realise that.
aHHAHAHA.

says:
hahahhaaaaa !!!!!!!
ah2 .

NANA says:
mcm dah biase buat gytuk.
HAHHAAH.

says:
hahaha .. habit /

NANA says:
shuddap.
atleast than licking ppol.
HAHHAA.

says:
hahaha !
ee .

NANA says:
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
omg, so LAME.

says:
lol , nie da giler.

NANA says:
HAHHA.
zhakirah cute.
zhakirah cute.
zhakirah cute.
zhakirah cute.
zhakirah cute.
zhakirah cute.
zhakirah cute.

says:
-.--.-
imma post about you (:
imma copy and paste our whole convo in my blog !

NANA says:
HAHA.
i dare you lorrh !

says:
okay !

NANA says:
hmphh.

Awwwww.. kesian eyy. She's begging me to not post this. Hahahhaahahhahha! Diyana Diyana :D Nie for fun jer laahhh. Chill ehh. Don't be angry. HAHAHAHA! I've tried my best to make the font small so people can't read, but hahaha, it's still can be seeeen :PP Awwwh! Haha!

I'M BORED!

Amalina is sick D: Hope she's coming to school tomorrow! ): OR ELSE I WOULD BE SADDDD! Haha. I'm missing my phone now! Real badly. I wanna text people! ARGHHHHH. Sorry peeps if i didn't reply yr messages D: So this is what i did today: -

- Played the bloody computer the whole time.
- Cafe world (I KNOW, LAME RIGHT)
- Chatted with alot of people
- EAT
- Kept fidgeting with my phone
- Talked to myself (:
- Editted pictures
- Read Dictionary

And yes, you've noticed i didn't mention i watched tv. HAHA. WOW!
Ah, this is kiling me. BORED BORED BORED. The setupid com is lagging! UGHHH! OMG! Okaaay i'm outta words. :/ BYE

EDITTED~

I don't know, i'm upset about something. It was... out of a sudden. WOW. Good job huhh. NOTTTT! I'm pissed. URGHHHHH. Fucking bitch D: I don't feel like elaborating it here. Sorry, byeeee.